I wish I can share with you personally but I know I can’t reach your level. And while people just treat me for who I am, but I am the lowest in your hierarchy just because I am not useful for anyone.
I want to let you know that you can grief for the loss or things that don’t go your way. In your era, you are told to be strong and hold on for the family. You are admirable that way. And for you to stick on with your hopeless, unreasonable and abusive husband. Maybe the only thing that’s admirable is you keeping the marriage covenant. But to be honest, to stick on with a emotionally and verbally abusive husband? I find that unacceptable though I know in my mind that the Bible have rules on divorce and remarriage. I hope God will enlightened me, because you have lost your memories due to the depression from living with someone like your husband.
Sometimes, we have all our defences to protect ourselves. We think we are so strong to handle all these bullshit and if someone doesn’t handle those bullshit and you call them too sensitive.
It is sad that while you think you are getting stronger, you are also being insensitive.
Maybe for these letter than I am writing to you, maybe I am the one that is insensitive and mean.